I’ll never forget what happened about a week ago where I tried to kill myself by running into a train and running into traffic out of anger infront of someone who im very valuable to. My mind is a very bright but dark place at the same time. And I just don’t understand how I can stand in the middle of both. I just never really thought I would get to the point where I really don’t care. Not that I don’t care about people or the earth. But me, hmm. I’m just a spec of stardust. If I would of succeeded, I would be upset because there’s so much to world I want to give and change. But then there are times where I wished I would of succeeded. I always stood on one side or the other, never in the middle. This is strange… I’ve never been here before.